Finally!

It's been a few weeks, but I'm finally back online and able to update.  I live out in the sticks where wireless internet doesn't reach, so for the last year or so I have been dependent on a wireless device that I stick into my usb port in order to be connected to the internet.  This posed a problem a few weeks ago when the unreliable, stupid device decided to break.  The only hopes I've had for getting online have been when my brother was kind enough to let me borrow his iphone (a rare occurance... it only happened when the stars were aligned a certian way and the moon grew pink and purple polka dots) or when I would take the time to drive 15 minutes into town and sit in the parking lot of MCallisters or Subway and pick up their WiFi.  Since it has been freezing or below the last several nights and I've been lazy, I haven't done that, so I pretty much gave up on the internet.    That is until today.  I'm able to be on right now via dial-up, and it stinks because it's as slow as a turtle stuck in peanut butter, but atleast it's something.  I can't complain.  Soooo.... This has been my life since my last update.

I was supposed to take a winter session english class, but since it required a lot more reading than I was willing to do, I dropped it.  That gave me two more weeks to sit around the house and pretty much be a bum.  A clean bum.  I shower daily.  I just don't do much else.  :)  I'm prepping my body for the long, 18 hour semester ahead.  I know I shouldn't complain.  I'm thankful that I have the opportunity to go to college and get an education because so many people are not able to do that.  That's just one of the many blessings God as given me.  

Speaking of blessings, I am doing summer missions again.  :)  It was something I struggled with for a while because to be honest, I didn't want to go off again for the summer.  With daddy being sick, I didn't want to go off and leave him for a whole summer, and I really wanted to do an internship and get some work experience in journalism.  At the same time. I felt led to do summer missions and I enjoyed last summer, and I wanted to do it again.  So I started praying.  I prayed that if God didn't want me to do it, then He would start shutting the door.  I've always believed that if you feel led to do something, pursue it until God Himself throws up a roadblock and stops you.  God did nothing but open doors for me.  He provided me with a missions position inwhich I can earn school credit and serve Him at the same time.  I will be working in journalism/media field and it will be 4 weeks instead of 8 or 10.  The scary part: it's international.  I've never been out of the United States (with the exception of Canada) and with all of this terrorist stuff you hear all over the news, the thought of an international flight scares me.  I'm accepting this call though, and I will go.  I trust God to take care of me provide everything I need to get ready for this trip.  Because it is a restricted area where the country's government does not allow missionaries or pastors to go, I cannot write on here where I am going this summer.  It is in Europe, but that is really all I can say.  I really can't put on here what all I will be doing either, but please remember this project in your prayers.  I will have partners and I will be working with a local supervisor there.  It is exciting, but at the same time, it is alittle scary.  I know God must have something big planned for this summer because I can already feel Satan trying to mess with me and do all he can to prevent me from going.  I'm warding him off with prayer.  We'll see how things go, it's a long time from now until this summer. 

 I hope to continue updating regularly.  Until next time, peace and much love.  :)

-B